, Life

Self Portrait | August

A piece of me really felt that when I quit my job I would feel happy. satisfied. whole.

I really believed all I would need to do is free up that piece of my life that was holding me back. That is taking up my time. Then I will have time to work out, eat healthy, and be a better wife. I even mentioned those things here. I truly felt like a switch would turn on and then a hallelujah noise would ring and my life would instantly become awesome.

The interesting thing about it is: I haven’t arrived. I am barely getting into working out. I have made mini baby steps at taking care of this house and eating healthy but nothing has hit a state of completion. There are definitely weeks where I am on top of my game, but I never will never get to the finish line under these circumstances, not until I get to the core of my struggles.

As most of you know, music is a big part of my life and I feel like the lyrics of this song are exactly what I need to hear sometimes. I usually have such a black & white feeling about everything. Either I am perfect and totally put together or the complete opposite. I need to let go of the guilt and realize there is beauty in the breakdown. To enjoy life in it’s moments. The ups and downs, it’s all part of living life.

So raise your pumpkin’ spice latte or chai to seeing the beauty in life’s imperfections.

FROU FROU LYRICS

So, let go,
Jump in
Oh well, what you waiting for?
It’s alright
‘Cause there’s beauty in the breakdown
So, let go, yeah let go
Just get in
Oh, it’s so amazing here
It’s all right
‘Cause there’s beauty in the breakdown

In the breakdown
‘Cause there’s beauty in the breakdown
The breakdown

So amazing here
‘Cause there’s beauty in the breakdown

  1. Angela W.

    I so know how you feel, I can totally relate. I find myself always saying “as soon as this happens, as soon as that happens” It’s like all or nothing sometimes and it hard to find the in between. It’s nice to be re-minded that others feel the same. Thanks for the post.

  2. Brooke

    There are so many times that I feel the same way. 🙂 it’s all part of life…which makes all these things seem perfect. Love reading your blog!

  3. Elizabeth

    I feel like I am the verge of writing a post very similar to this. I too felt like when I quit my job and was doing what I loved, everything else would magically fall into place. Life would be better- eating, execise, etc. Well, I am still waiting! 🙂 good song choice and so true.

  4. leah

    You absolutely nailed that one girl. This is a heavy reflection post and you’re spot on.

  5. Kara Townsend

    It’s great that you are never satisfied. It’s that drive that allowed you to start your own business from scratch. Not only that, your own business was so successful (when so many others never get beyond the dreaming stage) you were able to quit your day job. Keep striving but don’t just focus on what you haven’t done. Focus on what you have done once in a while too…you have had such an inspirational impact on so many people – your creativity and joy is a light in this world. You are awesome.

  6. Carrie

    Could not have nailed this any better than you did!

  7. emily griffith

    I hear ya, girl! This life sure is a beautiful mess. Thanks for sharing today 🙂

  8. Alex

    Beautiful post! Everyone feels as though they haven’t arrived, but something that helps me is looking at the progression from where I was last year. Great post.

  9. Jess

    Great words. Great pics. Wonderful heart. Beautiful woman. xxoo

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