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Can you believe it is March already? It seem like I wrote this post ages ago. Here is my February self portrait. Man let me tell you these don’t get any easier for me. A whole ball of emotions well up inside when I put together these posts.

This month was definitely plum-full of introspection. I have been processing my thoughts, moods and decisions in depth. I am fighting feeling uncomfortable and trying to get the core of my fears or beliefs that are holding me back. One of the specific things I have been wrestling with is how I see myself. I am utterly critical of every single imperfection I have.

I recently have been introduced to Hot Yoga and I absolutely love it. It’s a great workout and awesome detox because its between 105-109 the whole time you are in there. During the class the teacher instructs you to find your eyes/gaze in the mirror in front of you. Here comes me being super vulnerable….. I know this sounds small, but this is so hard for me. I don’t like looking at myself. The minute I lift my eyes I can only see my problems. My shirt isn’t fitting right, I am not small enough, my hair is making me look like a boy, my cheeks are chubby….I could go on and on people.

I don’t want to be this way. I want to look into the mirror and love the me that is present at that moment, boy hair and all.

I can’t wait till the month I share a self-portrait where I am not looking away, but proudly sharing the present me without reservations. Until then, I am working through it. Which is ok. Because it’s really about the journey and not just the destination, right Emily?

  1. Katie

    Gina you are a REMARKABLE and beautiful woman! So proud to know you, and to be a witness to the journey that you are on. To me you are one of the strongest women I know, and when we talk, you constantly ask questions that I need to hear. Lots of processing and thoughts going on down here too.. HUGS!

  2. leah.fontaine

    And I daily pray that your strength in yourself only grows to be able to see the person I know. I want to see your eyes stat.

  3. Jenni Bailey

    I totally have to comment on this because it’s something I have been thinking about – and struggling with myself – a lot lately. I have been very harmful and hard on myself in the past. And one day, when I was whining about how my lip curls up crookedly when I smile and how ugly that was, I stopped and actually listened to what I was saying. I wondered how I would feel if I heard my gorgeous, spectacular, amazing daughter (who happens to have inherited that quirky little lip curl) say these kinds of critical things about herself. It would break my heart. Because when I look at her I see nothing but perfection. Her smile is a miracle and the very idea that she might find some flaw in her beautiful face was crushing.

    So lately I’ve been trying to see in the mirror what my Dad must have seen when he looked at me. It’s a sort of experiment, a challenge I have issued to myself. And, as cheesy as it sounds, it actually works. The world needs a little more love, I think. Starting with loving ourselves is both the easiest and the hardest thing to do. But personally I’m a little happier when I catch a glimpse of my reflection these days.

    Life’s too short and you’re WAY too beautiful to be so hard on yourself. Chin up, girl. Enjoy that journey. 🙂

  4. Emily Ley

    Ohhh yes mam that’s right! I so know what you mean. And I admitadly laughed when I read your “flaws” that you see. I thought “she’s crazy! Those are MY FLAWS!” So funny what we see in ourselves that no one else does. <3

  5. Mary Dunlap

    Gina…you are so NOT alone with this! It would be nice if we all naturally accepted our imperfections and moved on…but that’s just not the case. Putting yourself out there on your blog is a great achievement and a step in overcoming these fears. Cheers to you.

  6. Kristi

    Beautiful Photo! Gina, I truly consider myself lucky to have met you! You are such an inspiration and have such a huge heart! I’m excited to see where life takes you and your talents. There are no flaws and I can’t wait to see those eyes of yours!

  7. Rosaura Sandoval

    Hi Gina! You move me. Thank you for sharing and being so vulnerable with us. I think you are beautiful inside and out. Love your journey and your photography! Besitos! 🙂

My girl Eliesa hosted a MN Photostars mixer tonight and here is a sneak peek of some of the fun. It included some photobooth, face  jowling/jostling(did i even say that right?), hats, pyramids, crooked instax max photos, wind and fire :).  I met some awesome people, we have quite the talented group here in the twin cities. I was so excited to see the amount of people that attended and to meet new faces, I hope to get a chance to chat with everyone next time!

  1. eliesa

    HA! Love these! What a fun night that was! LOVEe

  2. Heidi

    It really was a fun night! So many talented people in one room! 🙂 Cute pictures!

  3. Briony

    looks like a great night!

  4. Jessica Barker

    This is what I missed?!?!?! BUMMER. Next time, I won’t poop out and leave at 9pm. 🙂

  5. geneoh

    pure awesome.

  6. Kristi

    Gina – these are great! Wish I could have stayed a bit longer! It was a load of fun though!

  7. melissa oholendt

    I seriously had the BEST TIME. Love all of you. Like whoa. (PS – I’m totally stealing these images.)

  8. Collin Hughes

    so stoked we got to do this! and the fact that the sparklers worked…we were so determined!

Close your eyes and trust it, just trust it :: Glitter in the air -Pink

When Matt took this picture of me, I was just at the beginning of my eyes being opened to my passions & life goals. I remember exactly how the wind off the waves felt on my face at the beach in Watercolor. I have been playing this song on repeat while looking through photos. It just hits home on so many levels for me (plus her Grammy performance was beautiful art).

My favorite line of this song :: Have you ever looked fear in the face, and said I just don’t care ::

I want to do this daily. Bring it fear, cause right behind you is amazing accomplishments.

  1. Alexandra

    Beautiful post 🙂

  2. lexie

    thanks for the post! I needed this today…..I am ready to say bring on the fear 🙂

  3. Cali Harris

    Such beautiful thoughts, lady!

    “I was just at the beginning of my eyes being opened to my passions & life goals.”

    Isn’t that an INCREDIBLE, terrifying, amazing space to be in?

  4. Kendra

    Your blog continues to inspire me everyday! Your photography is incredible! Your words are so inspiring to me! Keep reaching those goals, because you are doing terrific things!

  5. stefanie miles

    such a fan of you! awesome image. really looking forward to talking again soon!

  6. Lara

    I’m FINALLY getting caught up on blogs and this post just captures my heart. Wow, Gina, you are so beautiful. Your last quote is priceless. Thank you for sharing this moment.

  7. lydia

    love this. thank you.

The JNP Studios workshop was packed full of awesomeness (which I have more to post about) here is more from the live shoot with some of Jeff’s clients to test out some tilt-shift lenses. I was blessed to work with Tara & Dan. Check out Jeffrey’s e-session with them here, the colors in the shoot are rocking.

Tara & Dan were such a sweet little couple. In the short time I got to work them, their genuine care for others and each other really shined through. They were so comfortable with each other, it was such a treat to shoot with them. At one point when I was setting up a shot, I saw a peak of a tattoo on Dan’s wrist area. It looked like it could possibly be a whole arm tat, and I was thinking in my head “no way this sweet little couple and he has his arm done…na Gina you are just tired and hungry” Then I see it again and had to ask..”No way is that a full arm tat?” and they both just smiled.

Later I asked Dan rolling up his sleeves and showing it off and this yumminess is what we got.

  1. kirsten

    i want her whole outfit.

    and i love the photos. 🙂

  2. Rosaura Sandoval

    Love these photos! Loved meeting you too! 🙂

  3. Ryan

    Wow, some great stuff! I love the tat sleeve.