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MTH2010 | October Self

This morning I wanted to start in a place of reflection of my MTH2010 journey. I needed to prepare myself after an October that consisted of 44 sessions and 5 weddings. I was surprisingly met with an uneasy feeling in my stomach searching through my old MTH posts. Almost being nervous or scared? I got really frustrated at these feelings because they feel so out of place. I know in my heart that I am so excited for the time ahead and I know how powerful my MTH experience was. Still the feelings were real. After a long conversation and fantastic breakfast with my bestie Lauren. I feel I have got to the bottom of it.

What was driving this? Fear. Fear of being vulnerable and open. Not that I am a quiet introvert, its super easy for me to talk to and to share with others. Yet, I get so comfortable digging my head into my workload and schedule serving others, that many times with out even noticing choose the life of crazy so I don’t have to pay attention to me and my feelings. It’s my coping mechanism. It’s not something that I am super proud of and something that I am definitely working on. This fall season was really hard, I took on way way too much and while I had a fantastic time. My family, friends, health and heart suffered with the constant run around.

I am approaching a time of soul searching, really digging deep and getting real. The fear and emotion at first was overwhelming. I took a long hot shower and I surrendered this trip and these fears to God. I was immediately filled up with peace. Knowing that with his help, nothing can defeat me. I know that this fear and emotion only means I am at the brink of something big. Something God has driven by giving me the opportunity of being a part of this trip with Lara and Emily. Lara wrote today The most important actions are never comfortable. – Tim Ferriss.  It was like she mentioned that for me. Case and point.

So after letting the fear pass over me. I am super smiling about the journey he has prepared ahead.  I have no doubt it will be uncomfortable, challenging, yet I welcome all of it. It’s the essence of MTH2010. I can’t wait to jump in and start swimming. (yes while said this out loud, swimming hand motions and maybe even a little of nose plug action was involved 🙂

I am so excited to meet each face on this tour. I am elated to spend full days with those who also want to push themselves and their businesses to a whole new level. So bring your whole self.  It’s going to be amazing.

  1. Jessica Barker

    SO incredibly proud of you, Gina!! Have so much fun and say hi (and give her a belly rub) to Emily Ley. XXOO

  2. Elizabeth Hafner

    Thanks for sharing and always being open to share. I look forward to meeting you in person on Friday.

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  4. amy

    so thankful for who you are Gina! Your spirit is so contagious! I am excited to see what magic happens for the next and last leg of MTH2010 tour.

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