Today I am still hoping and praying that it is the Lord’s will that we will have our own adorable little baby someday. Even if it seems impossible right now.
Today I am rejoicing and thankful for the Lord’s unspeakable grace in this long waiting season. Grace to be able to photograph maternity sessions and newborn sessions without one ounce of bitterness. (People often ask if it’s hard and honestly no! It’s been such a blessing to just feel pure joy while working. Truly a gift from God)
Today I am celebrating that I am not perfect and will go through trials here on this earth. Trials just like this one that breaks my heart mosts days. Why? Because they are breaking me down, piece by piece to become more like Jesus. To trust Him more. To see Him for who He really is. A good and loving father.
Today I am setting my hope on God’s plan for our family. Which is bigger than I could ever imagine. I am continuing to reiterate and read in the word that He is good. He is for my good. He is for me. Even on the hardest days, it all has a purpose.
Today I am telling my future self to come back and re-read this truth. No matter what crazy, hurtful things that are happening in my life, to seek God and His goodness. Seek truth, not feelings or what everyone else says. Just seek His Truth. The only thing that matters.