Because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness.
Oh friends, words can’t describe His faithfulness. His love for us. His love for us this entire time, even the times I didn’t see or feel it.
See if you remember the last update I gave y’all about our fertility journey was an ugly one. September was definitely one of the hardest months in my walk with Christ. I spent a lot of time in tears, anger and just questioning the Lord’s goodness. I just didn’t understand. There was just SO much hurt seeping out if me.
After that post I threw in the towel. To be completely honest I was just so overwhelmed by the hurt that I just slumped down and gave up my hope. In my mind I told The Lord I just can’t even pray about it anymore. I can’t. I can’t. I can’t. I did everything to not produce hope. I just proceeded to hold onto a bit of my bitterness to help me from falling apart and went on with life, travel and the crazy that would describe my October.
So when you read about when we found out, it was a complete surprise. And while we were shocked and excited out of out minds my heart felt guilty.
WHO AM I TO RECEIVE THIS GIFT?
I had turned my back on The Lord with this situation. I had given up hope. I hadn’t prayed. And He blessed us with this gift now? I’m so undeserving. I wasn’t “faithful” in my heart to Him and yet we still received this Good News.
And then it HIT ME. It’s like The Lord was saying Gina. This is what MY GRACE really is. This is a perfect mirror to what your salvation really is.
You cannot earn it. IT’S A PURE GIFT FROM THE ONLY ONE WHO CAN GIVE IT!! Even when you turn your back in the moment or hold onto your bitterness I am still here. Holding you, loving you. In my faithfulness.
See y’all while we are so completely overwhelmed by the gift of pregnancy. We are even more overjoyed that we have a FATHER in heaven that has saved us by HIS PERFECT, un-earnable grace.
So today we are taking this journey, step by step. Day by Day. Because we know we have a father that no matter the circumstance LOVES US. Even when it doesn’t feel that way, so we are ready to walk the path He has laid for us (which honestly scares the crap outta me sometimes) yet that path is the only way to live!
Join us in rejoicing in this Glorious News & His amazing faithfulness. Baby Zeidler is due July 2014!!!
We feel so blessed! Our little one is due July 3rd just a couple days shy of my 30th birthday! There have been so many beautiful blessings in the timing of this baby that we could have never planned. The Lord definitely knows what He is doing and we continue to hand over this little life to Him and His grand plan. Praying that it’s His will, that we will get to hold this baby outside Gina’s tummy and for a trillion times after that. We are learning each day that we have to continue to fully trust in HIM.
A super HUGE thank you to each of you that have reached out, said a prayer, sent a gift or just sent your love. We couldn’t have walked this far without each of you. Thank you times a million.
Love, Matt and Gina!
Images by the amazing Leah Fontaine